Tw: Cheating, abuse, homelessness, suicidal ideation
Please dear god help me
I just found out my partner (B) that I'm living with has been cheating on me. He's been demanding I go back and live with (Partner A) on and off, and right now, (Partner A) can't take me for very valid reasons ((Partner A) is not a bad person - (Partner A), do not feel bad, this is not your fault, i love you). When the answer came back that (Partner A) can't take me in, he started to get very insistent I find somewhere else to live and that I __need__ to leave.
I've been fearing homelessness, and the stress has been enough that I've been, for weeks now, thinking I need to be in the hospital so I don't kill myself. Seeing that I lack any kind of support in-person, this hasn't happened, and i've been left in a state of danger.
This morning, I woke up in pain, stayed up a few hours to try and wait the pain off, then, very tired, I was gonna go back to sleep. I check Partner B's phone to see what time his alarm is supposed to go off so I don't go to sleep for 10 mins then get woke right back up. It was right there. In the open.
He's cheating on me. Instead of being open and honest about his love interests, and requesting I spend some time elsewhere so he can spend time with this person, he's made me fear for my life, fear being homeless, and been dishonest about dating someone else. The number one rule in this entire polyamourous relationship - in which no one is required to date or frankly even like everyone else's partners - is that you be open and honest about who you're dating.
This is abuse. Let alone my fear of homelessness.
Please. I don't want to be homeless. And I don't want to be here anymore.
I need your help.
I need money for a plane ticket, for myself and for my cat. IT's very possible I have somewhere to go, at least for now, so I'm asking for help with travel. Money for food, clothes, to help with expenses of housing me. Anything. Anything you can give, please. Please do. Spread this around to your friends by copy pasting this or signal boosting this. Please. PLEASE help me. I can't be homeless again. My body can't take it.
firstname.lastname@example.org is my paypal, if you have any money to spare.
Update: I'm now out of psychiatric care after checking myself in for fear of harming myself.
I'm shocked and warmed by the comments, well wishes, commiserated anger, and help, both through emotional labor and guidance, and financial means. I was scared when i was being discharged, but now I'm hopeful.
I haven't heard back from a friend who offered a place to stay. In the meantime, I'm going to the job center tomorrow, and have follow up appointments for my continued mental health. Financial assistance thus far given will be used to help me work toward a job and new home as I take steps to secure my future.
I'll be staying at a friend's tonight.
(Pasted from my status)
Will answer concerns and comments when I'm at a keyboard.
Everything is stable right now.
I've spent money on transport and on professional looking clothing (read: not faded and torn), and have a promising potential job making good money. I'm able to stay where I am until I can afford to leave, and what money is left from everyone's generosity is being put aside for apartment deposit / utility deposit. (And cat food. if I can find my cat again. Who is currently missing..)
Thank you everyone who's helped me, and especially Guttergoo
and family for letting me stay with them for a few nights and taking such good care of me.